FULL OF GIGGLES

This sweet girl means the world to me. Her imagination is going crazy, and she’s constantly looking for fun games to play, singing silly made up songs, and saying insanely cute things like, “I can’t wait to go in the sky!” … “I wanna pee on the grass. The grass kinda like a potty, Mama.” … “I have so many questions!!!” …and, “I want to hold the moon!” I am writing it all down and savoring every moment of her sweet, innocent, lovely laughter and spirit. I love her with all my heart.

The other day, she made a fort under a little side table that we have. I helped her make it cozy and she’s been playing, reading, and hiding under it all the time. The table is covered with a lace tablecloth so when she’s hiding I can peak at her through the lace. Being her mom, I was so overcome with her joy, silliness, and her beautiful smile that I grabbed my camera and shot a few photos through the holes in the lace…

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She’s growing so quickly. After bringing Lulu home, G seems so much older than she did just a couple of weeks ago. It’s been a little hard. I miss her. She’s been my little shadow for two and half years and it feels foreign to have to be away from her so often. I’m loving the focused time with Lulu, but I miss my big girl too. Sometimes she seems so big, and other times she really needs her mommy and seems so little. It makes me feel so sad to not be able to be there to meet her every need right when she needs it met. She’s started saying, “I need mama time”, usually with tears in her eyes.

I’m doing my best to find one on one time with her while her sister sleeps. We read books, cuddle and watch a movie, or slip out for a quick date… by far my favorite one on one time with her these days is when she’s all tucked into bed and she says, “Mama you wanna cuddle wiv me?” We snuggle in the dark and giggle, cuddle, sing silly songs, and I soak in the memories. I try to commit everything about these moments to memory, the way she smells, the sound it makes when she sucks on the corner of her blankie, what it feels like to have her hold my face and look at me like I’m her favorite person on earth.